Do you ever feel like a strawberry being blended into a system of thoughts and beliefs that seem to become one with you, like a smoothie? It doesn’t feel right. But then, listening to the music, like the new track Special berry from Standards you remember, I am not a strawberry!
The happenings around COVID-19 have increased my desire to eavesdrop on social media and take part in the drama. But then I catch myself. I close my laptop, put down my smartphone, and take a deep breath. In the immediate present, everything is open. I can choose to be calm. I realize this and play “Mama Teaches Sanskrit” then “4T Recordings” by Four Tet as the background to my life.
Does music that is pessimistic prolong your pessimism? One of my friends thinks so. And I think I agree. At least I know that when I listened to Conor Oberst (Bright Eyes) in high school it was hard for me to transmute my depression into happiness.
Last week I experienced a heartache and longing, a frustration and craving, a cavity of love and meaning. The energy was difficult, as was finding music that I could connect with. Any music that was an iota less than genuine and loving was unbearable for me to listen to, which is why there are only four tracks this week.
Desires and truths bubbling to the surface. Lying on the floor, red lights reflecting off the white ceiling. Lying in bed, thinking of the future. Looking at the streetlight through the crack of the bedroom curtain, at what is. Listening to the music. Feeling the connection with the help of Nada Surf’s new track “Looking for You” that promises “what you’re looking for’s looking for you, too (don’t move).”